That I will start posting again. Really, I will. Even if it means giving a minute by minute breakdown of my day at College. I'll post SOMETHING each day.

Exciting, isn't it?

I realise that at this point I am pretty much talking to myself, but what the hell, who cares?

Yes. Yes.

Better than the book.

Better than Twilight.

SO FUCKING AWESOME.

My 360 has a blog!

http://360voice.gamerdna.com/blog.asp?tag=HolyMeerkat

And now for something completely different....

I got back into College and I start again tomorrow. It's going to be hell getting up in time so I can get there on time. Drastic measures be need to be taken. I'm taking BTEC Business, GCSE Science and GCSE Maths. Hopefully I'll pass the last two because then I can move onto A-Levels.

Ben lent me an ethernet cable so now I'm playing on XBOX Live, finally. But the only game I own that has Online Multiplayer is Resident Evil 5. Thankfully, my Uncle lent me both Gears Of War games so I have other stuff to play as well.

Ur, I can't think of anything else.

I'm going to make some food, I'm hungry x.x

I should start posting again....

Expect one tomorrow either saying yay or complaining that I've fucked up a lot of things.

Come on America, wake the fuck up, buy the new song and let me download it illegally!

Please =)

In other news: True Blood is fan-fucking-tastic.

I go onto the bloody PATD LJ page because I really want NEW SONGS DAMMIT and I see the post about Ryan talking about the article.

FANS ARE FUCKING CRAZY.

Just maybe he didn't see the fucking drugs. Seriously. And because they were there, it doesn't mean he took the bastards. And someone used a photo as proof that he'd done it before. A little pointers, kids. You snort cocaine. If he was snorting it, WHY WOULD IT BE ON HIS LIPS?! Besides, you can barely see it, I had to squint to see the white. Maybe it was FUCKING MAKE-UP like he said. Christ. This is why I hate fandom. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Most fandoms are full of crazy bastards.


Seriously. That picture is not proof. Nor is the other picture. Being in the same room as drugs=/=taking drugs.

Here endeth the lesson.

Christ, I've been reading up on the split and the fanbase for this band sucks so many dicks it's unreal. Christ. Pointing the finger of blame everywhere blah blah.

Maybe it's because I don't really keep up with the band and only keep an eye out for news about new stuff but god all this "Ryan is a douche" stuff. Maybe it's true, maybe it's not but christ so much hate.

This is why I don't like a lot of fandoms. All this bitching about stuff. Just enjoy it.

Oh, totally. White lies are essential sometimes.

La Roux.

Naturally.

He walks through the forest as it dies around him. When he had started the threes were alive, their leafs bright and green. Now they were brown and dead, falling to the floor, crunching underneath his feet.

He had come across an alarming amount of dead birds and animals during his walk. He hadn't seen anything like it before and he couldn't think of any plausible reasib for why everything around him was dead or dying.

Eventually, he found himself standing in a meadow. The meadow was dead, the ground cracked and dry. In the centre of the meadow sat a person, a man. He sat there with his head down and his eyes closed, unaware of the other mans presence. The standing man approached the sitting man, a look of curiosity on his face.

The standing man reached out towards the sitting man. The sitting man loioked up and watched as the standing man placed his hand on his head. The two men were flung apart, an unimaginable force given birth from their contact.

The once standing man screamed in agony, life shooting up from the earth around him.

Ther once sitting man laughed, the ground below him crumbling away, turning into dust.

In the centre of the meadow stood something new entirely.

This is the moment the world ended.

The world is quiet here. Here, in the meadow at night, watching the stars and the moon. Lying on my back, looking at the sky, I feel connected to it all. I am alone here and yet I'm surrounded by life that goes on without ever being noticed. The birds in the trees, the insects in the grass. The natural flow of life.

But everything has its time. Everything dies, eventually. I feel it spreading, flowing away from me. The grass around me dies, insects quietly fade away. The leaves of the trees turn red. I spin on the spot, seeing birds drop out of the sky. The leaves are brown now. A plane flies overhead. I can hear the screams as one of the engines explodes, sending the plane and it's passengers plummeting into the ground several miles away. The trees are naked, every leaf now on the ground. I sit down, sighing.

The world is quiet here.

Crowded places. Not good.

Saw Star Trek on Wednesday. Win win win win. I love the entire cast. Chekhov the most though. "Ewacuwating Wingons!" Love his Engrish.

Just caught up on Geordans LJ. No offence, but thought of you with a tattoo made me rofl.

And then I read the post about the memory. I don't remember saying anything about video games :D But whatever, you may be right.

It's a bit...depressing knowing that you and Al won't talk. Sorta splits up my very little social circle. There's Alex and Taz (not that she has anything against you, but she's more likely to be with Alex) and then there's you. Yeah, I feel like someones going to get sidelined :D

Anyway. Talk about myself. Um, I got an application for Hull College on....Monday. Need to fill that out and I need a referal. Back to school for me methinks.

Right now I'm extremely happy. Ecstatic. I'm happy with where I am in life, oddly enough. Sure, I don't see my friends as much as I like and I'm stuck between colleges but I am really god damn happy. Woo.

I'm really fucking hungry. Just made some chips. Nom time.

Oh lord.

I'd say it was bad.

Hm. I approve.

Today, I came out to my Mum. Which is a good thing. My hands are sort of shakey.

It went well.

Odd how I was really nervous over something that should be really easy to say though.

To this song by 'The Veronicas'. I didn't really like it and then it grew on me. The best part is that the lead singers seem to be twins....

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalalalalalala

I can't lie lie lie lie lie lie
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don't be scared
I'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You've still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched
Alalalala alalalala
Untouched
Alalalala alalalala

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched

I have this wierd feeling. In my stomach. Pleasant but sickly.

I know exactly why.

It's a nice feeling.

But yeah. I need to hug someone. Or just kiss them.

Before the story begins, is it such a sin,
for me to take what's mine, until the end of time
We were more than friends, before the story ends,
And I will take what's mine, create what
God would never design

Our love had been so strong for far too long,
I was weak with fear that
something would go wrong,
before the possibilities came true,
I took all possibility from you
Almost laughed myself to tears,(hahaha)
conjuring her deepest fears
(come here you fucking bitch)

Must have stabbed her fifty fucking times,
I can't believe it,
Ripped her heart out right before her eyes,
Eyes over easy, eat it eat it eat it

She was never this good in bed
even when she was sleepin'
now she's just so perfect I've
never been quite so fucking deep in
it goes on and on and on,
I can keep you lookin' young and preserved forever,
with a fountain to spray on your youth whenever

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
let's make a new start
’cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
but baby don't cry

Now possibilities I'd never considered,
are occurring the likes of which I'd never heard,
Now an angry soul comes back from beyond the grave,
to repossess a body with which I'd misbehaved

Smiling right from ear to ear
Almost laughed herself to tears

Must have stabbed him fifty fucking times
I can't believe it
Ripped his heart out right before his eyes
Eyes over easy
Eat it eat it eat it

Now that it's done I realize the error of my ways
I must venture back to apologize from somewhere far beyond the grave

I gotta make up for what I've done
’Cause I was all up in a piece of heaven
while you burned in hell, no peace forever

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, We fell apart
Let’s make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
But baby don't cry

I will suffer for so long
(What will you do, not long enough)
To make it up to you
(I pray to God that you do)
I'll do whatever you want me to do
(Well then I’ll grant you a chance)
And if it's not enough
(If it’s not enough, If it’s not enough)
If it's not enough
(Not enough)
Try again
(Try again)
And again
(And again)
Over and over again
(Over and over again)
We’re coming back, coming back
We’ll live forever, live forever
Let’s have wedding, have a wedding
Let’s start the killing, start the killing

Do you take this man in death for the rest of your unnatural life?
(Yes, I do.)
Do you take this woman in death for the rest of your unnatural life?
(I do.)
I now pronounce you...

’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
And a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry

You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart
Let’s make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime yeah
But baby don't cry